Disclaimer: I adore my sons. They bring me such happiness and joy and I would do anything for them. Even though I complain sometimes and I'm stressed out sometimes, I would not trade them or the experience of being their Mom for anything in the world.
But.......
Sometimes I remember how much simpler life was before kids. The other night I was completely stir-crazy and desperately wanted to do something. But, we had a sick toddler, a wound-up preschooler and it was nearing bedtime. I really wanted to go to Barnes and Noble (the one near us is open every night until 11), have a latte and really browse the books. Instead, I played endless games of Bejeweled. Yes, Duane would have told me to go and enjoy myself, but I wanted go WITH him, and without having to chase the kids through the store.
Then: Going to movies first run movies
Now: Bringing movies home from the library and trying to stay awake after the kids go to bed to watch them.
Then: Dinner was whatever we felt like and eaten in the living room.
Now: Dinner attempts to be healthy, is eaten in the dining room as a family, and is always a whine fest because Wesley is a picky eater and Ryan hates his high chair.
Then: Going to church was a time to reflect and worship
Now: Going to church is a major feat, filled with trying to keep the kids quiet and possibly a bit of worship thrown in there too.
Then: A clean house
Now: Toys EVERYWHERE, baby gates at the stairs and safety latches on the cupboards.
Then: I read the paper every morning.
Now: We have switched to only having the paper delivered on the weekends because at least then we MIGHT have time to read it.
Then: When we went out to dinner we went where we wanted to.
Now: Restaurants are chosen based on the kids menu, how quick the service is and if the restaurant is loud enough to cover the noise my kids might make.
Then: Going to work meant grabbing my lunch, a book to read, my purse and getting in my car and driving to work.
Now: Going to work means grabbing the diaper bag (with spare outfits for both kids), Wesley's preschool bag, Bobo for Ryan, Bear for Wesley, milk for both kids, plus all my stuff, loading it all in the mini-van and dropping the kids off somewhere before going to work.
Then: Plain, painted walls
Now: Every surface covered with stickered and colored papers
Then: Being able to go to the bathroom or take a bath in peace
Now: Going to the "potty" with a child banging on the door, or throwing toys in the bathtub while you're trying to relax.
Yeah, I miss the childless days sometimes, but I do know how blessed I am to have Wesley and Ryan shaking things up every day!